Evil Manor

I know, I promised lots of entries, and I have lots of thoughts and experiences I want to share, but never do. When I have the inspiration, I'm usually at work, which is not the ideal place for making big entries with pictures and everything.

But I'll give you some appetizer:

London: it was great and I have a few pictures for you :)




My Godchild: She is so adorable and tiny and sweet!!!11ONE!

Yeah, finally the first of my old friends got married *sob* She's a lovely woman and even if I can stand being together with both of them together (they're fighting all the time - of course not really and it's their way of being together, but I hate it!) I'm so happy for them!

I was coupled with him 7 years ago and now he's my best friend and like a brother for me.

Within the next 2 weeks they're going to be parents of a little girl and I'm so excited *squeeee*

But one thing bothered me today: I asked him, whether he is happy and his answer was "Yes, I've had the best "best man" (me) in the world and the best godmother (me) for my daughter". I'm very happy that he loves me and that I'm that important for him, but that's definitely NOT the right answer, when you hear this question on your wedding's day, is it?

When I was at home, I thought about our life, our separation, men that came after him and I got depressed... fortunately just for a few minutes ;) I'm a lonely wolf and hate being with people - literally! I even feel uncomfortable if my friends are staying with me for more than a day. And the thought of my company's trip to Ireland makes my skin crawl... Being together with about 70 drunk people (we're visiting breweries and distilleries) makes me unhappy - I'm neither a drinker nor a party person and will sit alone in some corner and watch lots of unknown people being ridiculous. Great vision, isn't it?
I thought about canceling the trip but it's always a bad thing, not participating on any company stuff... So I'll have to think about it, again.

When I saw this... *looks around* sweet *coughs* little (actually it's tiny and very suspect) internet café, I took the chance and fled the typical London rain. It's not bad, since it's not cold and I'm prepared, but actually I hoped to find some guys online to chat with. The connection is terribly slow and I alwazs hit the wrong keys (see 'alwazs').

But actually I didn't want to whine but tell you a bit about my adventures so far.

Let's start with the flight... it was TERRIBLE! I was so totally tense and almost panicking, it was a disaster. Fortunately the flight only takes 1,5 hours and when I left the plain, I understood, why the pope is kissing the earth after a landing ;) (yeah, I know that's not the reason, but I felt like)

London itself is totally cool and beautiful and I love it - even with the rain and the strange keyboards ;) I just wandered around the city, Victoria, Leicester / Trafalgar Square and went to the terrific musical Wicked *squeeeeeee*

Many people are talking to me (ok, just promotion guys) and they're so charming! In Germany they're just annoying, but here I only met lovely and polite people.

Oh my... did you know that there is a Take That musical?! I think, I heard it once, but totally forgot. Hairspray sadly was sold out, otherwise I would have tried to get a ticket for this one tonight.

Sadly I can't get the pics from my mobile to show you, but I will when I'm at home again (which I'm soo looking forward to)

Now I have to find presents for my friends and family, think about spending LOTS of money to either Buckingham Palace or St. Paul's Cathedral and mentally prepare to my 18 person's room in the hostel and the flight tomorrow.

I've almost cancelled the whole trip since one of my cats got an infection on Wednesday. So I went to the emergency doc with him, so that he got a bit of antibiotic. And since he actually should go to the regular doc on Thursday for the proper medication etc.. I almost decided to stay. On Thursday I kind of rolled the dice for the decision, but since he acted way better and I couldn't get the money for the musical back, I took the flight. My ex-flatmate went to the doc with the cat after I informed him, so everything is ok now.

It's weird to travel alone... you can do whatever you want, but on the other hand you have nobody to share the memories with. That's what bothers me the most... everybody knows how boring it is to see other people's pics and you never can get the real feeling of being there, and isn't it the best part to talk after situations years later... like my sister and I and the "Wallpapering Table of Death" (literally).

So, Time is over and I close my first impressions... have a nice time and see you on Saturday.

P.S. Don't mind the typos, I'll correct them next time ;)

In a few weeks I'm going to be a godmother *squee* And I'm such a geek and love all this terribly funny computer - quote - thingies ;)

So I ordered little Lilly a romper suit. Isn't it absolutely awesome?!

Oh and I saw a shirt, I didn't buy, but I eventually will some day... it said: I don't need to "Get a Life" I'm a gamer, I have lots of lifes.

And sad, but true: 1f u c4n r34d th1s u r34lly n33d 2 g3t l41d ;)

I know, this is just funny if you're into this stuff, but that's ok ;) I am and Lilly has to wear this cute little suit - at least her dad likes it, too.

Just a short entry for a Harry Potter sound, I've found.


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Oh stop... there is another one ;) Not HP, but funny, and I have to admit, that I love Basshunter <3


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Hey,

next week I'm on vacation :) And since I earn money now and are alone, I decided to make a 2 days trip to London. I have to admit, that makes me quite nervous. Thursday morning I'll start and leave on Saturday morning.
I never was in London before and my only fixed date is Thursday Evening "WICKED" the Musical. <3

Do you have any "must have seens/dones" for me?

Half of my company is talking about diets, weight, only eating raisins and nuts, skipping lunch and so on...
This may sound quite regular - except for the fact, that ALL my collegues are male!

Do you use these social networks? Of yourse, you're using LJ but all the rest? Facebook, Twitter, StudiVZ, MySpace and whatnot? I'm registered in a few of them, but after the first weeks of enthusiasm and testing all the features I'm always bored and quit the communitiy. So I have gazillions of unused accounts in the most different networks... I should clean them up some day.

Hey Guys,

I made a deal with malfoyrage; for updating the journal at least once per week. Bot of us should/want to write more often but don't do. So we did this for adding a bit pressure ;)

So let me think about something I could write...

Oh yeah, I tried an indian sweet dessert Rava Laddoo which wasn't exactly a success. ;) That's little balls from semolina, sugar, saisins, nuts, cardamon and more... they look a bit like sand balls from the playground and are a bit tricky to make ;) There are gazillions of different recipes out there and I just took one and failed totally *g* It contained sugarsyrup (sugar and water boiled until it's a sticky mass) and you have to mix it into the dry semolina... everything was lumpy and not a homogene dough. But next week I'll try it again and maybe I try this video... http://showmethecurry.com/2007/06/06/rava-ladoo/ It looks at least very simple ;)

What other to tell...

I think, I figured out how my fanfiction-folder disappeared... I'm a playchild and love to test new software and tools... oh and there was this super-cool software that encrypts your folders.. and I tried it and forgot... well, it was a tool that used a key-file and after the next re-installation of windows this file was gone and I sat there with this encrypted folder which wasn't decryptable and I totally forgot which folder it was... so I just deleted it. *cry* I realised this two weeks ago, when I was talking to s.o. about TrueCrypt which is similar. Quite cool tool, esp. for USB-sticks you carry with you, but never forget the password!

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Hey,

how are you? I'm fine. :) My job is nice, even if I still think sometimes, that it's only temporary and can't be true... I think I had too much temporary jobs in my life so I just can't believe that it's really true. But it is :)

In my private life I start to live alone for the first time... my flatmate moved to his girlfriend. As soon as his stuff is vanished (he hast still some furniture here) I'm going to have a whole flat for myself and not only a room. That'll be nice :) A nice living room and a seperate sleeping room... I know this must sound pathetic to you, but that's ok *g*

At the moment I start to clean up my life and the flat and start to do a lot of things I always wanted but never did. I booked some short trips to London and Amsterdam, I'm going to start singing lessons, again, maybe even piano, I change my food and start to eat more healthy and maybe I even try to do garden work *shudders* I so hate it, but I have a small garden in front of the house which looks terrible atm. and I have a small garden in the back, which is more like a jungle of nettles and bad weeds. I'm not sure that I'll realise that part, but if not I'll get some professional guys, at least for the front garden.

So I'm full of energy and good intentions, let's see what will be realised.

That's my current situation, tell me about yours :)

Hey guys,

a few days ago I've written some ficlet (pwp - what else *g*) but only on paper and I hate to typewrite it...

Except for writing I love to sing at the moment. I realised that I was so stupid to stop it 10 years ago... no, actually I knew it all the time, but at the moment I'm really sad about it and think about taking singing lessons, again. I was soo good and in between I get the right tunes, but it sounds... mediocre *sighs*
No, I never wanted to become a popstar but a classical singer... opera, oratories, concerts... Bach, Mozart, things like that, maybe even a bit musical.

But a propos musical: does anybody of you like musicals? I don't know much, but there are great pieces available.
( Musical stuff )

Just a short interruption: WHY do this skeleton girls think, they are beautyfull? They're just scary and some of them remind me of war victims...

( on with the musicals )

( World of Warcraft stuff )

Sometimes, when I read through all your journals, I think about slash pairings in my favourite shows. I got convinced by Gil/Greg (CSI:LV), but in my current fav, Bones, I don't see a pairing. There could be Seeley/Zac, oder Seeley/Hodgens oder Hodgens/Zac, but I don't like them... I prefer the regular pairings, so no slash for Bones - even if I'm going to search some stories, when I'm at home *ggg*

Besides from that, my life is quiet and stable. And I found out why I gained some weight wile working in my new company, although I only drank more than usual. After checking the calories, I realised that I get about half of my need just with my drinks, which is incredible! I always thought that juices are harmles and healthy, but a bottle of good orange juice contains about 450 calories (1800 kJoule). But don't worry, this won't become a diet-diary with whining about my body or whatever, I just was surprised.

I want to be able to draw! I scribble different parts of faces on my papers all the time, but I never get a good combination and I'm way to unpatient for practising properly.

Hey Guys,

I'm deadly tired, so I try to stay awake with writing an entry ;)
Actually I should work (it's about quarter past 5pm over here), but I stick in a hole of big cluelessness *swim* Actually it sounded like a simple task but I have absolutely no idea how to manage this, whis is quite embarrassing. I know what I want to have for a result and what I have to do, but sadly no plan how to do it technically.

Tell me something about you. I was away for too long (again!) and have no idea about you lovely guys.

accio_draco, are you active, again? I saw you in AIM a while ago, but had no time to talk to you.

teemus, tell me something about India. We have to guys here, and I'm often surprised by there habits. Like marrying a woman you actually don't know and stuff like that. What would happen when you fall in love with another woman? No chance of getting together, because you have to marry, or is it depending on the family of the specific man?
Oh and I tried your tip with Remember the milk and it's quite nice. I even tried it together with Twitter in my messenger, wich works fine, but I'm just too lazy to set it up ;)

kayen, how's the status of your search for work? Got a place in Japan, finally? Or another exotic place in the world?

einheitstochter, I wanted to have one of your stunning pictures and never took a look if you draw something for me, which is not excusable - I'm sorry!

verschreibsel, you added me a few months ago and I'd like to know more about you :) Tell me something. In German or English, I don't care :)

Ok, then I'll tell you something about me at the moment.
I'm working hard in my new job, but still have the feeling of being a totally noob and not helpful *sniff* Bad feeling, but it becomes better (except for this week *still swimming in cluelessness*).
I dream weird stuff about men in women's clothes, again (it's always the man I want to have fun with... quite disturbing, since actually I don't have a lesbian touch)
My English is improving and I learn some Danish words i.e. 'tilgængelighed' which means accessibility/availability. Not quite thrilling, but I like the view of the word ;)
I still play World of Warcraft and took a few looks into other free MMORPGs, like Perfect World or Fiesta Online.
Nothing special about me, just a new washing machine, a new dish washer, a new laptop and next week we have bulk waste, so I can get rid of my old sofa which contains more cat-pee than a regular cat-toilet after a week... I never sit on it anymore and next week it's gone *yay* ;)
As you can see, nothing special to tell from me.

Lovely greetings to everybody who still reads this *waves*

ETA: If you want to see the burial of one of our old servers in Denmark (our mother company), take a look at this video... may he rest in peace - after this massacre ;)

Some time ago I wrote a Drabble called Surprise in the Prefects Bathroom and babbled something like letting it beta and maybe post it again ;) And since alenyaa asked, I post it, again. It's still the drabble and a ficlet (how many words do you need for calling it a ficlet and not a drabble anymore? I always thought that a drabble has exactly 100 words, but there are a lot of so called drabbles outside with many more... some seperated in 100 word parts, some just so... is there an official rule?)

( drabble and ficlet (NC 17) )

And today I'm the depressive one... I'm not often depressive, but today is one of the few days... I'm going to lose one of my best friends... Actually this thought is silly, but it's true. We lived together for almost 10 years, had a relationship in the first 3 years and became family after it.
But now his girlfriend got pregnant and they will move together. Not right now but in the beginning of the next year, I guess, and I have to admit that it frustrates and scares me... it was like an omen that I puked like hell the morning before we heard about the great news.
Don't misunderstood me... they're great news and I'm really happy for them (it's planned) and I know that we will stay friends... but I have the feeling that we aren't a family anymore... he has his own family yet and doesn't need me anymore *sigh*
I'll survive it and I'm going to live with it quickly, but at the moment I'm depressed and could cry :(
Additionally my training is over and from the next monday (not tomorrow) I'm officially unemployed... I have nightmares about a dead friend from my school and everything is just shitty.

I have lots of dirty pr0n in my head, but don't find the time to structure it and get it out *grml* After 2 years I really WANT to write, again.

Anyway... I shouldn't write anything but applications... my training is over in about 4 Weeks and I don't have a job yet :( I hate writing applications, because I can't make myself better than I am, or in other words, when I read the announcements I always think that I'm not good enough, so I'm discouraged right from the start.

I know that most time the people write that they need a allround-genie, but don't expect you to be, but this knowledge doesn't help me, I feel stupid anyway :( At least I have some holidays from 9/21 for 2 Weeks. *yay*

I listen to the radio at work and since the German hiphop is unbearable, I switched to a dutch station I discovered years ago during some holidays in the Netherlands. No bad 'gangsta rap' but lots of funny little songs.
So here I have some Videos from the dutch charts ( some aren't in there anymore, but all of them were in the top 40 ).

Hey kayen,

happy birthday and a happy and quite successful new year ♥

Hey sweeties ;)

I just wanted to see, who's still reading me ;) I fear that my absence caused some kicks and I'm all alone *sniffs dramatically*

So I want to leav esome greetings for you :)

camillaspace I wish you much success with your adorable Malakel and maybe I'll get the book :)
einheitstochter Nice to see your pictures, again :) Your style is so unique and not ony 'another manga' that's cool!
kayen Gimme teh pics ;) And tell me why did you stop writing HP slash? Grown up? Just boring? Everything said?
lotta_wicked YOU HAVE INTERNET, AGAIN *squeeees*
silverbirdflys Sadly we don't meet anymore in ICQ. I miss chatting with you about sexy vampires :(
sorion Today I found a slash group in studiVz and some people told that your 'Colours' was their first slashstory, so I thought you're maybe interested, that you created a new generation of little slashers ;)
teemus Lovely greetings to India :)

These were only the special greetings, so don't be offended, If you read this and aren't mentioned. I'd like to hear from you, anyway, just because I want to know if somebody is still reading me.

Sometimes you should extend your horizon and stick your nose in other fandoms, too ;) Yesterday I was bored (again *snickers*) and stumbled upon Bring Back The Porn Challenge on Insanejournal. after scrolling through the pages I found Crack by elmyraemilie (on IJ) which is a really nice fanfic about Gil and Greg from CSI: Las Vegas. These both were always my favourites from the show but when I one thought about a slash-pairing, my only idea was Nick/Warrick and I didn't found it thrilling. But when I saw the header, I had to take a look inside and it was worth it!
Since I had more time, Is started to look for other stories, until I found gil_loves_greg and A Perfect Match by wojo62 ♥ Sooooo hot and I love Gil's characterization as a control freak, which he obviously is. Oh and Greg is definitely a "natural sub" no doubts about that :)

I think I have to look for a G/G Icon and read more about them... *dreams* It's so cool to be in different fandoms just because of the different settings ans, especially, the different 'languages' It's a huge difference to write Harry Potter or maybe Angel/Spike.

In three weeks my useless practical training is finished and I have holidays for 2 weeks. But THEN I have to find a job :( I hate writing applications and actually I don't want to move, because I'm lazy. That's why I'm very impressed by kayen and his plans to move to Japan *bows* I wish you much success, my cute little cam-whore ;)

I'm a software developer with way too less self consciousness :( I always read the announcements and think 'no, I can't do this', 'nope, I haven't studied', 'oh noes, I only heard about this language but can't do it' and things like that... so I never even try to send my applications, which is very stupid!1!!ONE!111!!!ELEVEN

Do you have some tips for believing in yourself on a business layer? I mean, actually I'm quite satisfied with my knowledge and try new things but the whole 'need a new job' thing scares me. Especially because my training here was absolute useless. Most time I didn't have the (external) informations for developing my software and just waited or we got 2 different orders for one project and had to rebuild everything we did so far. So I can't even say that I've learned good stuff or worked a lot :( Instead of that I rediscovered LJ and my deep love to Harry and Draco ♥ got my pants wet with hot (underage *snorts*) HP-Pr0n and spent many hours in the World of Warcraft-Communities. I even mirrored my LJ to LA@Insanejournal and LA@Journalfen and all of this in my regular working time!

So and now I need to pee, but the guys outside said we aren't allowed to use water, because they are working on the pipes... and I have no idea if I'm allowed to use the toilet now Oo

I know, most of you don't play World of Warcraft, but I decided to make the spam in my journal so that I know where to find ;)

( On to some WoW pics :) )