Family, I love you and I miss you!

In between I've read all 4 books and... uhm... what shall I say? Honestly I really don't know what to say about them... They're... funny. Let's say I read them in a few days, because they're really entertaining. But the plot... well... as you can see I lack on words to describe my impressions.

Vampires, oh excuse me, sparkling vampires, werwolfes, superbabe... As my sister, numsi, said: "it's a huge Mary Sue" and you know that's not exactly a compliment ;)

Do you know Twitter? I think it't a nice idea and very entertaining, but you know me... I lose my interest sooner or later, so let's see how long this will last.

( My Twitter )

Yes, I'm going to write about Twilight... I bought the book around Christmas for my flight from the US home, because I was in Vampire/Fantasy mood, after reading the first Dark Hunter stories. And since the bookstore didn't had more of them, I decided to take Twilight instead. Actually I haven't read it until this week and it was only because I ran out of other books ;)

But I have to admit that I enjoyed it. I'm not exactly a faaaaaan *squee* but it was nice to read, even if the idea of a sparkling vampire is really hilarious!

The actual problem was, that I've seen so many pictures of Robert Pattinson, I was automatically imagining him, while reading the book and I'm sorry, but he definitely does NOT match the description of a beautiful angelic guy with an inviting voice... that was a bit annoying.

Besides of that, I'm fine. My living room got a complete make over <3 and work is not too stressy at the moment. Weather is nice (not too warm and sunny), my cats irritating as always, but I love them to death!

Some days ago, I realised that I don't feel... final. Sounds odd, but I explain: I've never had the feeling that I'm a grown up, although I'm also not a youth. I hated being a teen even when I was one and was always more sophisticated somehow. But still I'm not an adult, or, at least, don't feel like one. I'm living on my own, I have a nice job, I have a life I really like, but still I don't have the feeling, that this is the end. Sure, life is never at it's end and you always develop and change, but actually I'm in a status, which will be most likely stable for the next 10, 20, 30 years. And I feel totally comfortable with my current situation, but there is a feeling deep inside, that this can't be it... that this is temporary and will change soon, and I have no idea why.

I don't want to change anything. I'm actually wishless happy. You know those moments when you see a falling star or a lash and you should make a wish? I never know, what to wish... I have none of those wishes. I maybe wish that I have a driver's license, but that's nothing you can wish when watching a star... I don't wish for Mr. Right, a family, becoming a superstar, loosing 80 pounds, a pony ;) That makes me wonder, if something is wrong... it is healthy to wish and to dream and everybody should have dreams!

Yeah, I know... I always post some creepy philosophical stuff. You don't have to answer anything of that ;) Just tell how you are and maybe your experiences about Twilight or whatever comes into your mind :) I'll go now and look for new icons.

Ich will nur mal eben testen, ob ich jetzt tatsächlich über mein Miranda Einträge schreiben kann und wenn ja, wie die dann aussehen

Taken from verschreibsel, who has an amazing userpic:

1. Take four books off your bookshelf.
2. Write the first sentence
3. Write the last sentence on page fifty
4. Write the second sentence on page one hundred
5. Write the next to the last sentence on page one hundred fifty
6. Write the final sentence of the book
7. Tag four people (as if I have so many readers left ;) )

( The Wonderful Wizard of OZ by L.Frank Baum )
Wow that were long sentences...

( Death du Jour by Kathy Reichs )
quite the opposite *g*

( Night Play by Sherrily Kenyon )
This could have been a PG16 part, but they picked the harmless sentences ;)

( Zen and the Art of Vampires by Kate MacAlister )
I haven't even read this one, but bought it for my last flights; together with Twilight by Stephenie Meyer, which I haven't read either.

About 5 years ago (what an awful long time Oo) I was deep in my HP Fan fiction obsession and read a beautiful story from michaelmalfoy about the topic Draco = Veela, Harry = his mate. I have no idea if this is still around in the current stories, but back then it was very popular.
Inspired by his story, I started one by myself, I actually really liked, but never published. Suddenly I hated to be author no. 7820455 who writes a veela story and was looking for a different background. some people offered me nice ideas, but nothing fit for me, so I never finished the story.
Through the years I was reading my (3 chaptered) story every know and then and still like it, so today, I decided to go back to the roots and make it a veela story, again, so that I can finally finish it. Opposite to my usual stories it has a plot and not that much sex *g* . So far it's only in German, but when I was talking to Michael about it, I promised to translate it for him, since he was my inspiration. For him it's too late, but I'll translate it anyway for making it more public (yes, I love to be read by as many people as possible *g*).

This decision was partly made because of a mail I got from angelsanny, who asked for my first story.

Hey,

as you might know, with a paid account you automatically get an e-mail address. And no surprise, you automatically receive more spam. And what are there annoying spam mails about? Gay live cams. I really laughed hard when I saw this. Usually I get gazillions of viagra, casino, girl chats and similar useless stuff, but here, I finally get something that might interest me ;) The bots for analyzing the key words are really good here *g*

20 random things about me

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Hey,

I'm at work and feel bored... it's not that I don't have anything to do, but I'm terribly unmotivated and want to have weekend.
A few days ago I remembered last.FM and reactivated my account for listening to music at work. Usually I hate working while listening to music, but when I'm like today it's ok ;)
It's nice... you can hear you own collection or start a station with a special tag or artist.

Creativity is a tricky thing... either it comes to you when you have no time at all and doesn't leave you until you write something, or it's totally absent when you have loads of time. Or, as it is at the moment: It's under the surface and makes me wanting to write, but I have absolutely no idea about what. There is a huge urge to write something very dirty, but my mind is empty. *grml*

Ok, I better get focused on my work and try to leave early. Tomorrow some guys are coming and gonna remove the last hint of my ex-flatmate... the bed which was still in my living room (it's a loft bed). It's good for me, but my cats will hate me for that :( They love sleeping up there and there will be a lot of space lost for them *sigh*

Hey,

how are you guys? A very happy and successful new year to you!
I was way to long gone (again), but there is too much stress out there, hunting me and unfortunately I'm not fast enough to escape.
For the first time in my LJ-Career I changed my profile pic... I love this picture. It's from Victoria Francés, a spanish artist and I saw it on a puzzle yesterday.

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Finally I got a paid account ;) Maybe some of you remember that I was ranting a few years ago, that I definitely wanted to have a paid acc, but there was no way to do it w/o a credit card. But I'm grown up now, earn money AND have a CC - maybe it helps for my writing moral.

And since I'm grown up and have a job and so on, I had to make my first business trip... to the USA. I never was in America before, but I definitely wasn't happy about the trip. It was December the 12th and I learned it about 36 hours before my flight started. Over there (My hotel was in Alabama, the office in Mississippi) I didn't see much except for the hotel and the container.
Since I have no driver's license and the places were so small that there were no real sideways (I never saw a single pedestrian somewhere) I was quite lost and dependent on my colleague. When I left the Hotel in the morning, I felt like in my bathroom after a hot shower... it was so humid and warm.
In general it was fascinating to see all the things you only know from the TV...
( including: )

Other than that not much changed... I started to watch Navy CIS and like it, still write a few HP-PWP-Scenes every now and then, started to read the Dark-Hunter novels by Sherrilyn Kenyon and adore then (tomorrow there will be 3 more *sqee*), live alone and peaceful with my 3 cats, have way to much stress at work, etc.pp.

Oh and before I forget:
CONGRATULATIONS, numsi! I'm so proud of you :)

I know, I promised lots of entries, and I have lots of thoughts and experiences I want to share, but never do. When I have the inspiration, I'm usually at work, which is not the ideal place for making big entries with pictures and everything.

But I'll give you some appetizer:

London: it was great and I have a few pictures for you :)




My Godchild: She is so adorable and tiny and sweet!!!11ONE!

Yeah, finally the first of my old friends got married *sob* She's a lovely woman and even if I can stand being together with both of them together (they're fighting all the time - of course not really and it's their way of being together, but I hate it!) I'm so happy for them!

I was coupled with him 7 years ago and now he's my best friend and like a brother for me.

Within the next 2 weeks they're going to be parents of a little girl and I'm so excited *squeeee*

But one thing bothered me today: I asked him, whether he is happy and his answer was "Yes, I've had the best "best man" (me) in the world and the best godmother (me) for my daughter". I'm very happy that he loves me and that I'm that important for him, but that's definitely NOT the right answer, when you hear this question on your wedding's day, is it?

When I was at home, I thought about our life, our separation, men that came after him and I got depressed... fortunately just for a few minutes ;) I'm a lonely wolf and hate being with people - literally! I even feel uncomfortable if my friends are staying with me for more than a day. And the thought of my company's trip to Ireland makes my skin crawl... Being together with about 70 drunk people (we're visiting breweries and distilleries) makes me unhappy - I'm neither a drinker nor a party person and will sit alone in some corner and watch lots of unknown people being ridiculous. Great vision, isn't it?
I thought about canceling the trip but it's always a bad thing, not participating on any company stuff... So I'll have to think about it, again.

When I saw this... *looks around* sweet *coughs* little (actually it's tiny and very suspect) internet café, I took the chance and fled the typical London rain. It's not bad, since it's not cold and I'm prepared, but actually I hoped to find some guys online to chat with. The connection is terribly slow and I alwazs hit the wrong keys (see 'alwazs').

But actually I didn't want to whine but tell you a bit about my adventures so far.

Let's start with the flight... it was TERRIBLE! I was so totally tense and almost panicking, it was a disaster. Fortunately the flight only takes 1,5 hours and when I left the plain, I understood, why the pope is kissing the earth after a landing ;) (yeah, I know that's not the reason, but I felt like)

London itself is totally cool and beautiful and I love it - even with the rain and the strange keyboards ;) I just wandered around the city, Victoria, Leicester / Trafalgar Square and went to the terrific musical Wicked *squeeeeeee*

Many people are talking to me (ok, just promotion guys) and they're so charming! In Germany they're just annoying, but here I only met lovely and polite people.

Oh my... did you know that there is a Take That musical?! I think, I heard it once, but totally forgot. Hairspray sadly was sold out, otherwise I would have tried to get a ticket for this one tonight.

Sadly I can't get the pics from my mobile to show you, but I will when I'm at home again (which I'm soo looking forward to)

Now I have to find presents for my friends and family, think about spending LOTS of money to either Buckingham Palace or St. Paul's Cathedral and mentally prepare to my 18 person's room in the hostel and the flight tomorrow.

I've almost cancelled the whole trip since one of my cats got an infection on Wednesday. So I went to the emergency doc with him, so that he got a bit of antibiotic. And since he actually should go to the regular doc on Thursday for the proper medication etc.. I almost decided to stay. On Thursday I kind of rolled the dice for the decision, but since he acted way better and I couldn't get the money for the musical back, I took the flight. My ex-flatmate went to the doc with the cat after I informed him, so everything is ok now.

It's weird to travel alone... you can do whatever you want, but on the other hand you have nobody to share the memories with. That's what bothers me the most... everybody knows how boring it is to see other people's pics and you never can get the real feeling of being there, and isn't it the best part to talk after situations years later... like my sister and I and the "Wallpapering Table of Death" (literally).

So, Time is over and I close my first impressions... have a nice time and see you on Saturday.

P.S. Don't mind the typos, I'll correct them next time ;)

In a few weeks I'm going to be a godmother *squee* And I'm such a geek and love all this terribly funny computer - quote - thingies ;)

So I ordered little Lilly a romper suit. Isn't it absolutely awesome?!

Oh and I saw a shirt, I didn't buy, but I eventually will some day... it said: I don't need to "Get a Life" I'm a gamer, I have lots of lifes.

And sad, but true: 1f u c4n r34d th1s u r34lly n33d 2 g3t l41d ;)

I know, this is just funny if you're into this stuff, but that's ok ;) I am and Lilly has to wear this cute little suit - at least her dad likes it, too.

Just a short entry for a Harry Potter sound, I've found.


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Oh stop... there is another one ;) Not HP, but funny, and I have to admit, that I love Basshunter <3


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Hey,

next week I'm on vacation :) And since I earn money now and are alone, I decided to make a 2 days trip to London. I have to admit, that makes me quite nervous. Thursday morning I'll start and leave on Saturday morning.
I never was in London before and my only fixed date is Thursday Evening "WICKED" the Musical. <3

Do you have any "must have seens/dones" for me?

Half of my company is talking about diets, weight, only eating raisins and nuts, skipping lunch and so on...
This may sound quite regular - except for the fact, that ALL my collegues are male!

Do you use these social networks? Of yourse, you're using LJ but all the rest? Facebook, Twitter, StudiVZ, MySpace and whatnot? I'm registered in a few of them, but after the first weeks of enthusiasm and testing all the features I'm always bored and quit the communitiy. So I have gazillions of unused accounts in the most different networks... I should clean them up some day.

Hey Guys,

I made a deal with malfoyrage; for updating the journal at least once per week. Bot of us should/want to write more often but don't do. So we did this for adding a bit pressure ;)

So let me think about something I could write...

Oh yeah, I tried an indian sweet dessert Rava Laddoo which wasn't exactly a success. ;) That's little balls from semolina, sugar, saisins, nuts, cardamon and more... they look a bit like sand balls from the playground and are a bit tricky to make ;) There are gazillions of different recipes out there and I just took one and failed totally *g* It contained sugarsyrup (sugar and water boiled until it's a sticky mass) and you have to mix it into the dry semolina... everything was lumpy and not a homogene dough. But next week I'll try it again and maybe I try this video... http://showmethecurry.com/2007/06/06/rava-ladoo/ It looks at least very simple ;)

What other to tell...

I think, I figured out how my fanfiction-folder disappeared... I'm a playchild and love to test new software and tools... oh and there was this super-cool software that encrypts your folders.. and I tried it and forgot... well, it was a tool that used a key-file and after the next re-installation of windows this file was gone and I sat there with this encrypted folder which wasn't decryptable and I totally forgot which folder it was... so I just deleted it. *cry* I realised this two weeks ago, when I was talking to s.o. about TrueCrypt which is similar. Quite cool tool, esp. for USB-sticks you carry with you, but never forget the password!

Hey,

how are you? I'm fine. :) My job is nice, even if I still think sometimes, that it's only temporary and can't be true... I think I had too much temporary jobs in my life so I just can't believe that it's really true. But it is :)

In my private life I start to live alone for the first time... my flatmate moved to his girlfriend. As soon as his stuff is vanished (he hast still some furniture here) I'm going to have a whole flat for myself and not only a room. That'll be nice :) A nice living room and a seperate sleeping room... I know this must sound pathetic to you, but that's ok *g*

At the moment I start to clean up my life and the flat and start to do a lot of things I always wanted but never did. I booked some short trips to London and Amsterdam, I'm going to start singing lessons, again, maybe even piano, I change my food and start to eat more healthy and maybe I even try to do garden work *shudders* I so hate it, but I have a small garden in front of the house which looks terrible atm. and I have a small garden in the back, which is more like a jungle of nettles and bad weeds. I'm not sure that I'll realise that part, but if not I'll get some professional guys, at least for the front garden.

So I'm full of energy and good intentions, let's see what will be realised.

That's my current situation, tell me about yours :)

Hey guys,

a few days ago I've written some ficlet (pwp - what else *g*) but only on paper and I hate to typewrite it...

Except for writing I love to sing at the moment. I realised that I was so stupid to stop it 10 years ago... no, actually I knew it all the time, but at the moment I'm really sad about it and think about taking singing lessons, again. I was soo good and in between I get the right tunes, but it sounds... mediocre *sighs*
No, I never wanted to become a popstar but a classical singer... opera, oratories, concerts... Bach, Mozart, things like that, maybe even a bit musical.

But a propos musical: does anybody of you like musicals? I don't know much, but there are great pieces available.
( Musical stuff )

Just a short interruption: WHY do this skeleton girls think, they are beautyfull? They're just scary and some of them remind me of war victims...

( on with the musicals )

( World of Warcraft stuff )

Sometimes, when I read through all your journals, I think about slash pairings in my favourite shows. I got convinced by Gil/Greg (CSI:LV), but in my current fav, Bones, I don't see a pairing. There could be Seeley/Zac, oder Seeley/Hodgens oder Hodgens/Zac, but I don't like them... I prefer the regular pairings, so no slash for Bones - even if I'm going to search some stories, when I'm at home *ggg*

Besides from that, my life is quiet and stable. And I found out why I gained some weight wile working in my new company, although I only drank more than usual. After checking the calories, I realised that I get about half of my need just with my drinks, which is incredible! I always thought that juices are harmles and healthy, but a bottle of good orange juice contains about 450 calories (1800 kJoule). But don't worry, this won't become a diet-diary with whining about my body or whatever, I just was surprised.

I want to be able to draw! I scribble different parts of faces on my papers all the time, but I never get a good combination and I'm way to unpatient for practising properly.